I’m one of your Russian students and have been studying with you for several years. Many students walked away when you went into the hospital at the end of 2014. They feel it’s a sign of weakness to end up in a hospital; something they thought you had risen above. What explanation should I give them? They did not expect this… it seemed like victimhood, so they walked away.
In 2005 and 2006, I had been trying to get rid of five major cosmic shadow beings. It felt as if I was in a war. The more I opposed them, the stronger they got. I then started racing against the clock… every destructive deed I saw they would do, had me working through the night to transcend and move out of the way. It felt as though I was constantly on the run to save the planet and its people. I finally found a way to deal with this after years of battling (I had to learn the hard way that opposition was not the answer — but they kept me on the run by holding staff members hostage, my family members, etc.) and I had no downtime to really figure it out.
What I did is to do something they didn’t expect: I captured these dark beings by placing them in five gallstones inside my gallbladder. I went to the doctor and told him what was ‘wrong’ with me, but because he wasn’t the one to discover it, he denied that anything was wrong with me at all. I left to lecture in Alaska and at the airport, I realized I had to have these stones out and burned as soon as possible. I called an ambulance, they confirmed the situation and I had gallbladder surgery.
My entire Alaskan class, except for three, spent their time voicing all the reasons that I was worse than a fake and walked away. This spread through my student base and within a few weeks I had hardly any students left.
There are at least two more such incidents that had happened before the Alaskan incident. The coma that occurred at the end of 2014, not only had this effect in Russian students, but some in Canada and America that had studied with me for 15 years – who had had miraculous healings with me – left also without even enquiring as to how things turned out.
- I have fortunately never succumbed to the temptation of seeing my ‘success’ in numbers of students, nor relying on them for my income. There can be no ‘success’ unless one is invested in convincing others; invested in being right. I am passionately engaged in learning, with or without others who feel the same.
- I have managed to overcome my disappointment in their not having seen that the insights we were being given, was so priceless, that there really is no other place to go.
- Every time this shedding of students happens, we make a very dramatic shift — like dead leaves being shaken off the tree. It feels much lighter and clearer after that.
- I don’t regard your illnesses, that we heal together through the healing oils, as failures, but as opportunities to work on planetary issues by overcoming it within yourself; as a message for your next step.
- Don’t approach me with codependent agendas and preconceived notions as to how I should be. I am unwilling to try and meet anyone’s expectations. But for your sake, don’t approach your eternal journey with expectations either — we haven’t been here before and whether ailments are still needed as a guiding measure or not, cannot be foreseen by us, nor judged as ‘unholy’.